Wants vs. Reality – written some time between 1990-1993
Thoughts careening to and fro
My wants conflicting with reality
Which is right, who’s to know?
Confusion and distress at an extremity
Unable to accept the reality of present
Reliving moments and memories of the past
These actions I begin to resent
But my wants are still running fast
Knowing it will never become true
But fantasizing none the less
Like suffering a bout with the flue
These wants put my mind at duress
Like flashed of bright white lights
Reality creeps in to my mind
These facts begin a huge fight
Reality and wants create a mental bind
Two things are obtained from this war
Confusion and depression invade
On my mind is placed a black mar
And accepting the reality is hard to evade
Seeing but only a single choice
Feeling the power reality has gained
The wants slowly lose their voice
And a pseudo peace is attained
For this is only a temporary state
Til the wants return from their wait.